booboo

moving again!

2008-11-18T07:03:00.000-08:00

hello everyone, sorry for not updating a long time but i am moving off to greener pastures...

click here to direct urself to my new blog, if all of u are still interested in my boring and dull life. just feel bored of blogger as i have been blogging for the past 5 years. but who knows, i might just come back if i am bored! after all, i am a gemini! i am entitled to be FICKLE! haha.

see ya guys there

baby がぃぃちぃばんすきです

2008-10-31T05:36:00.000-07:00

went to sch early in the morning and received a pair of good news and bad news.

good news is that he41o is an open book exam which would means i have no need to use so much of my storage space in my brain. however, open book means there is i cant hold any expectations for the exams cos the prof had said that pure copying is not gonna give me good grades. hopefully i can get good structures for the essays.

bad news is that my psych final paper is gonna have 60 mcqs!!!! i need mcq shen to bless me with good luck so that i will get all the correct answers. i really have a serious problem for recognition. i am really freaking stressed up abt psych. there are like 17 topics to mug and memorize. i am really dying over psych. ( i am so sorry for those reading my blogs cos its gonna be a start of stressed filled and depressong posts.) i just need to blog it out to relieve my stress.

and of cos CBA which i do not have any idea on what is gonna come out at all. the profs are rather slack and there are some calculations that still baffles me a lot and of cos qualitative answers which i am not really sure how to answer. and not to speak of the profs always leave class early and cancelled this week lesson:( he did not even tell us the exam format.

and jap! having oral and listening next week. i cant be like last sem and slacked already as the jap level 2 is already out of my range. there are so much vocab and grammar to learn. i can just drown in the vocab seriously.

and to speak of TCM, i am really clueless abt it at all. not planning to mug until my final paper. i am just adopting an heck care attitude abt tcm already.

came home in the warmth of my family yday. really loved my family for their support. had a good talk with my dad, telling him abt me sinking into depression, he makes feel so much better. he is like the rock in my turmoil life.

of cos not to forget the other rock--- my baby.

look wad he drew me when i was talking to him abt my stressed up life.

i am really grateful and pls let all these love showered on me to get pass this difficult period. i should not wallow in self pity and do my best mugging for the exams! i believe that hard work will pay off. i just need to be calm and do my thing!

wanying! you can do it. jiayou jiayou jiayou!

11 more days to exams and 18 more days to freedom! my stomach turn queasy as the D day coming closer and closer. on the other hand, i want things to be over. hai, i seriously dunno wad i want.

okay! gotta mug somemore before resting early so tt i can have energy to mug tmr....

Rough week

2008-10-26T06:36:00.000-07:00

the rough week is ending soon since today is sunday! next week is another brand new week.

feeling v contented and blissful this weekend cos my bb is back!!! but the down side is that i am not mugging enough hours cos i really want to spend some time with him. just treat this as a rest and i will mug harder when he is going back tmr night... booo hoooo. feel so sad everytime he is leaving but he is gonna come back in next next weekend again!!!

my baby is so addictive.

just glad that my roller coaster feelings are over....hopefully and i have new found confidence in myself that i am smart and i can survive this...

i am glad tt i have friends to ride this storm with me... thank you all, you know who you are...

friends( other than my family, of cos) are really my pillars in my insane life.

the most difficult MCQ of my life

2008-10-21T21:21:00.000-07:00

i do not know what to do. i had gotten the bad news that i din do well in my psych quiz ( which i have studied qt hard for) and i feel like SU-ing the entire modules. talked to a few friends but all of them gave me different opinions( which i am thankful for their input) but all of their advice had something in common. they want me to think through carefully and not make a rash decision and it all depends on me whether i have the confidence to do that.

feel so burned out last night and bawled my eyes out. its my only way to relieve the stress pent up inside me. almost went into cardiac arrest as i could not sleep and keep pacing the grounds. my mind are just full of the negative thoughts that i really feel like checking myself into IMH. i do not know why i am giving myself so much stress but most prob its my second last semester. there is no more second chances.

i even have to resort to muscle relaxation and deep breathing tactics to lull myself to sleep. why can't life always go well for me. there is no semester that i do not worry about a particular module. there is always a module tt i am super damn worried about.

i need to talk to boomie about it before i make a rash decision. she always have this calming effect in my life. thank god for her.

my msn nick of the day: someone save me from this bottomless pit

and look what my baby draw for me on msn?

he recently discovered handwriting on the msn function and started presenting me with his daily drawings. wish he was here with me cos he always know the way to make me laugh and forgot all my troubles.

thank god for my family, friends and of cos baby for being there.

i need to think positive and work harder for exams!

Exam mania!

2008-10-19T03:41:00.000-07:00

the usual exams panics came and attack me again!

so freaked out. i can't afford to slack this semester, as this is my last second sem to pull up my grades. somehow, this sem, i felt v ill prepared.

it must be the 3 years of staying in hall which makes me feel more motivated to study. but this time round, there is no pressure to start mugging early at all. feel so stressedddddd...

effectively i have only 4 subjects to study for exam however, i did not attend a single TCM lecture at all. tho i have SU it, but i have no confidence to pass this module. arghhhhh. sighs. just have to work a tad harder for this subject, i just need a pass, a pass is fine! so afraid of bell curve as if all the ah tiongs do well, it will be harder to pass this module.

jap level 2 is getting harder too... i can no longer slack so much in jap already. but heng is tt i attended the lessons quite regularly and should be able to catch up with my work but the vocab words are amazing alot! i think there are like more than 300 of them....

wells, tho i have only taken 2 econs modules this sem, they are still not that easy. one good thing is that the final exams only comprises of 50% but still, i need to do well in order to pull up my GPA further....

and of cos every sem i will have a killer module and this sem is the psycho module. so much to memorize. sometimes i really regret taking tt module.... but bo bian... hai... aniways the quiz results are not out yet. haii... worried. please let me have a decent grade so tt things wun be so bad.

alrights, shall have to go shower and home sweet home to cont my mugging life...

hell week はぉゎります!!!

2008-10-10T07:02:00.000-07:00

it took me a pretty long time to figure the hiragana words on my keyboard!

finally, its time to rest before going on full burst to start the mugging season...

stayed up till 3am to do up my discussant project for 410! thought that we won't do really well for it since its so last minute but the prof praised us! he said he liked the way we started with the good points and acknowledge tt the group had indeed done well in their paper and research before going into the points that we think is not so good. i guess, in life, you must always try to see the good in ppl first before passing judgment--- a very impt life lesson that i learnt in economics today!

sometimes i really love economics, it is totally related to ur everyday life and u realise everything happens for a reason. there is always this cause and effect relationship that will spring surprises at u every now and then. i feel extra intellectual whenever i attend 410 as the new info is processed in my brain. sometimes i wish i was more well read but i guess, i am simply too lazy for that. haha.

left one more project left for the entire sem ( not counting fyp) sometimes, i really amazed at the last min work that me, chu an and yz can churn out. it feels so good to cheer each other and realise tt u are not alone in this shit but rather there are ppl with u. i love my fyp mates to bits tho we seldom socialise outside of lessons but i am glad to have them in my uni days.

going to take a mini break, watching my kangxi and wulindadao! i am recently addicted to wulindadao and i really think da s is getting prettier and prettier! ( i am not referring to u ok, gui tee. stop having illusions!) haha. just kidding sia.

heard a couple of econs classmates discussing the number of resumes they had sent. send a tiny alarm bell ringing in my head tt i have not yet sent out any. i really fear what's ahead of me especially with this economic recession tt singapore is facing right now. my mom kept telling me just get wadever job i can get ipon graduation and earn some experience. i think she is afraid tt i will be a parasite at home.... haha...

afraid of what lies ahead of me but u have no choice just to move forward, hoping to find tt light in ur life.

wonders of facebook

2008-10-08T01:45:00.000-07:00

I was so bored last night that i went onto my facebook account to add some friends and view what is happening around my friends. and i was bo liao to update my status to " i am having severe depression + panic disorder"

just seconds later, a number of ppl pm me about my status and start to give me words of encouragement. one was from a sec school friend that i could actually count the number of sentences we have actually had with each other and the other one is my cousin! i was so surprised when i was checking my mail and received notification that they had replied to my status asking me whether i am alright, blah blah. and a minute later, my another cousin msned me and asked how was i doing.

i was so paiseh tt i immediately took them down. nonetheless, i was damn touched and thankful for my friends and family.

it was 230 am in the morning.

i hate to admit it but facebook is qt a wonderful thing. it helps u keep track of ur friends and what they have been up to and also some mini surprises when u realises u have mutual friends. that's when u realise how small the world is. haha.

right now, i am still stressed abt the quiz tmr. i think i nv studied so hard for a quiz before. i really have negative thoughts about it and keep thinking i will do badly in it. taking abnormal psych indeed makes one abnormal. when u read abt the different symptoms of mental disorders, you start relating to yourself and analyzing whether u have such syptoms. no wonder they always say its a thin line between insanity and sanity.

but how do you determine whether a behaviour is insane or sane? i think this is a rather subjective topic and some things might be insane to u but perfectly sane to others. it just depends on ur social environment and the way you are brought up.

i always blog surf whenever i was mugging cos i had rather short attention span. and i came across this blog as she blogged about her hk trip! i suddenly had this weird fantasy of meeting lam fung on the streets of hk if i do visit hk one day! haha. mugging is driving me mad. i actually fantasize wad i am going to say to him and request to take a pictures with him!

ok,enough of mad talking and back to my notes.

i need to think positive to cope with stress.

depression. mania. bipolar

2008-10-06T01:30:00.000-07:00

I am suffering from psychology depression. tho i have started mugging for the quiz since the recess but i took a one week break and all i have remembered just flew out of the window. what's worse is that i have problems concentrating on what i am suppose to mugged.

and to top it off, i have a discussant project due on friday whic is worth 10% and i have done naught for it. and of cos the big psycho quiz which comprises of 100 MCQs which is worth 40%!

all the shite lumped tog in one hellish week.

it has been along time since i felt so stressed abt everything and exams are nearing in one mth.

nothing much to look forward in oct. what a freakish mth.

a mugging recess

2008-09-28T00:52:00.001-07:00

The recess is coming to an end. i have did a number of things-i-have-never-done before in my recess break.

first all of, i mugged. i am sure all of you did not believe it and hence i have pictures to prove it.

me mugging at gloria jean for 3 bucks ice blended drinks. thanks to chu an for telling me that! hahah.

swee and me- the youngest and most hardworking STUDENTS in our gang right now!

my fave zig markers and plain A4 paper for writing notes.

huiyu who came and join us midway through our mugging and abducted swee away for her shopping sprees. working ppl are so lucky to be able to spend n spend without much thinking!

after that, huiyu have to go off and meet her friends and me and swee had a nice and cheap dinner before going home. we were going against the current in city hall who are all gathered to watch the F1 formula. it was really qt a thrill to listen to the buzzing and roaring of the engines even tho we can't see a shite. haha. but its ok, it so so much better to watch on tv. at least you know who is who and have a clear view of their timings and rankings. haha.

okay, let's go on the second thing i did. i actually went back to school to have lessons! i thought i will pon the lessons but i didn't. cos i think i really liked this module- politicial economy of singapore which is rather interesting and they actually have 5 marks participation. i think i already got 2 liaos! haha. if not for the marks, i think i would have gone to sleep. haha. but the profs so far really qt interesting- a big motivation to go lessons. of cos, i also have to meet fyp prof that day. there are so much things to do for the fyp. we had a rather good meeting with him but one downside is our fyp tutor is nice but he is not the type to suggest how you can improve on ur fyp. rather, you have to present ur ideas to him and he will evaluate. dunno whether this is a good or bad thing. hopefully, things will turn out better and we have more great ideas on the way.

third of all, i went to cut my hair!!!! i had bangs again. whoaaa. made me look younger again but come to think of it- I AM YOUNG! WAHHAHAHA. previously, i have been pining my hair up without realizing that its the latest fashion cos everywhere i go, i see ppl pining their fringe up and make a sort of curry pok on top of their head. For me, it was merely a convenient thing as i hate hair covering my eyes. haha. i am so hip without me knowing. hahah.

alrights, this is tee gui gui birthday tt gmp is once again tog! haha. actually this pic is just suppose to illustrated my pin up hair as i think i need evidence to support my claim. hahaha.

last but not least, i jogged!!!! haha like almost every other day. so amazing but of cos i am only coverin short distance. dun wan to work myself and make myself so tired tt i cant mug at night. haha.

next week is the start of school and one big thing to look forward to is that baby is coming back on wed! hahaha. i miss him and i think waffle miss him too. he has not been eating and sleeping well. poor waffle and he has been restless and biting my hand whenever he has a chance, walking all over face, leaving his footprints. stupid waffle but i think i do understand that he missed his daddy very much. just like me. mugging for psychology is making depressed. sighs. but i have to finished mugging before he comes back as i am sure i wun have time for mugging when he is back and of cos, i wun have the mood to mug too. must treasure the short time tog before he is going back to kl again.

i really really hate LDR.

Hot Sunday

2008-09-21T00:30:00.000-07:00

Hello! okays, its rare for me to blog so frequently but its the start of the recess week after all! haha. i am still slacking at baby's house, trying to get some last min fyp research done so that i have no need to bring tons of research materials home. the way i am ferrying my laptop and external hard disks around, its no wonder i am getting more muscular in my arms. no more swimming for me! its totally damn sian when my shoulders are getting broader and broader.

totally missing baby's presence and i am getting withdrawals synptoms. i am so sorry for complaining abt my love sickness but i really cant stand distance!!! brrrr. always feels tt something is incomplete at the back of my mind. this is so me, always dwelling on unhappy and things that can't be helped. i wished i am more like bestie who can totally distract herself with so many stuff. but i got activities laid out for the entire week. just endure one weekend and baby is so gonna be back cos we are going to ah mei concert!!!! whooo hoooo but its not gonna be the er ren shi jie as his sister is coming along too... which is errr perfectly ok, i guess.

there are tons of things to be completed. need to mug on my psycho when i am my 100 questions MCQ which makes up 40% of my total grade. can't afford to flunk it and i must buck up! and i also need to get started on my TCM. so grateful to jas who offered to give me her notes. i think i have only atteneded like 1 out of 7 lectures so far??? i am so freaking dead but i am determined to SU it. i am so not gonna risk my results for that lousy GE. i hate choosing GEs. but i still need to pass hence i need to take this time to start reading a bit. having fyp meetings and meet up with prof and mates next week too. also not to mention meet ups with oc ppl for the long awaited treat( okay la, a bit paiseh to go when i did not do much but its still free food right? ahha, i am sure guigui will agree with me. ), jas, yongy and of cos my beloved gang of girlies. i totally love meeting up with the girlies gang, i must start thinking of nice names for this group of wonderful friends who have brought me so much happiness, fun and love for the past 7-8 years! haha. hoping to have a sleepover and long mj session. missed mj!

wow, din know i got so much stuff to say. anyways, today is gonna show the last episode of tangxinfengbao 2! boo hooo. no more lin feng, ho ma and the jian nv ren. i really love tangxin 2 more than 1 la. the first one is too much drama mama and the huai nv ren is damn lao nv ren la. at least mi xue is qt chic. haha. but her expression is so hen and got sha qi den she even intimidates me when i watched her. and tang 1 is trying too hard to be funny and touching but tang 2 comes off v naturally and the touching parts made me cry so many times. i will be damn high when the good ppl triumph in the end and of cos when lin feng comes on the screen!!!! hahaha.

okays, i will go read some books n cont on fyp before packing to go home sweet home. staying in his house just gonna make me miss him more.

Recess Break

2008-09-20T10:11:00.000-07:00

Started my recess break with gmp outing to celebrate lemon/ peach tee birthday aka tee gui gui! haha. happy bday girl! this is the 4th birthday that we celebrated together. time sure fly past! had a good time, so freaking glad that i met these bunch of good friends in hall. whoever says that its hard to get good friends in uni just simply do not want the hassle of maintaining relationships.

but on the other hand, maintaining relationships with diff grps of friends certainly take lotsa of energy and not to mention money and of course the most impt factor of all, time. whenever, we want to have dinner or watch a movie or a kbox session, all these involve money. When we are schooling, we need to spend time on our school work, projects, family and your the other half, you besties old friends, your extra commitments and last of all, time for yourself. we only have 7 days a week. the weekdays will be taken up by school work and the weekends you need to split with your family, ur bf/gf, your friends and u yourself. it is so freaking hard to divide time equally among everything.

but i guess in life, we need to find a balance in everything and of course the heart to fit all these gatherings into your schedules and most important of all, PRIORTISE!

missing baby right now but there are 3 more weeks to go before he comes back for the short weekend. this whole week is just :/ bland is the word to describe my week. sighs. but one good thing that came out of this short separation, i finally got started on my mini project which i hope i will have the perserverance and will to get the results i want. i must cherish it if i manage to get the results i wanted!!!

alrights, waffle is snoring behind me which means its time to sleep soon. night night everyone.

LDR

2008-09-14T08:03:00.000-07:00

LDR= Long distance relationship

I am one never who will never go into a LDR. The time apart is simply too agonizing for me to bear and often people says that absence do make the heart fonder. but i dont really think it hold true for me. for me, its mostly the case of " out of sight, out of mind". sighs.

I am often amazed at people who can actually maintain a LDR. But what makes a LDR successful? for one thing, you must have absolute faith in ur partner and feel totally secure with him/her. otherwise, it will be super damn tiring to maintain this r/s if you have to spend every min and second guessing whether ur the other half is cheating on you or doing smth that is way beyond the line.

for me, i am never the most secure person on earth, even the person may be just right next to me. I will always be wanting to get into his head, and trying to decipher what is he thinking of right now. Yes, i am such a person. dunno whether its good or bad but i just can't help feeling the way i am feeling.

hai, why so much ranting about this cos i am going thru a mini LDR now. so funny, after 30 mths tog, and i still bawl like a baby when he left. one month without him seemed like ages though everyone around me kept telling me one month is a short period only.

i know but i think this is the longest we have been apart. and its totally not helping whenever i see waffle cos he reminds me so much of his daddy. and i feel so bad having to leave him everytime alone in the big room. wish i could take him back with me but my sisters got dogophobia.

just received baby's good night sms. feel so happy when there is someone on the otherside of the causeway thinking of u. ok, i am so freaking mushy that i can't stand it.

ciaos.

Work, work and more work!

2008-08-26T21:32:00.000-07:00

School is in full swing to the fourth week. Yanzhen has been lamenting to me that it seemed like time has been flying past and we are already so busy in the first month of school! I already have 2 presentations and have been starting my FYP!

Feel so stressed doing so much work everyday but travelling is not as bad as i thought it would be, even though i really hate squeezing with people. however, travelling to sch everyday really makes one feel more like a uni student as you take much care in taking care of your appearance. but the downside is that you tend to repeat the clothes you wear. haha. but nvm, it is an excuse to do more shopping! haha. ( if i have the money lah, of course!)

even though with the huge piles of work to be done, i am still a tv junkie! it must be my grandma who loves to watch tv and whilst taking care of me, she also place me in front of the tv with my two other sisters. no wonder all of us are such tv junkies! i could remember her placing a mattress in front of the tv and all of us just laid there to watch tv till its time to sleep! haha. and of course, we couldn't kick the habit even when we were off to school. even though my dad placed our desks( yes, we had our own office desks in the living room, so that my dad can supervise us to study) back facing the tv, my sisters actually went to get mirrors to watch tv through the reflections! we are such tv addicts. haha.

anyways back abt my tv shows, i have been chasing 命中注定爱上你! The last episode just finished showing on last sun! i will miss the show so much! that show is really two thumbs up! thanks to alice for introducing the show to me! haha. the show is amazing la, damn romantic and freaking hilarious. it is not the main cast that makes this show outstanding but also the supporting characters! hahaa. if you have a chance, u all must go watch this show! i confirm plus chop that you will fall in love with this show too!

have been watching 溏心风暴2 which is much much better than the first installment. the second one is much more interesting and the scenes are confirmed much more touching than the first one! but, it has been tough chasing 5 episodes per week. i totally love lin feng in the show, whenever his scene comes on, my whole face will brighten up. this is really a show that will makes u 义愤填膺 when those baddies are exposed! muahhahaha.

alrights, i need to go back to do my term paper again! just hope these 2 weeks will fly past and hopefully, we will be free-er next month! next up, i am gonna post up waffle pictures! He is still a pain but i still hearts him. (:

PHELPS PHELPS PHELPS!

2008-08-16T09:37:00.000-07:00

I have been waking up at 10am, just to do one things which is to watch SWIMMING! i love watching the GREAT michael Phelps swim, he is freaking amazing!

He has won 7 golds and broke 6 world records and 1 olympic record! Tomorrow is the last day when he is gonna to swim for his final team event! I am keeping my fingers crossed for him! I have not been that exciting about swimming 4 years ago... but i guess its because i start to swim competitively for hall olympics, i began to understand the great pressure on the standing block as you listen out for the signal to plunge into the water. And of course, the thrashing of water underneath, when you cannot hear anything except the thrashing of water around you and the sound of each breath you take when u emerge out of the water.

Competitive swimming is so pressuring, glad that there is no need for me to swim this year. haha. But I do miss the winning feeling. haha.

Had a nice dinner with cousins and baby. This is the first time I met the cousins outside of family gathering... and somehow even though we do not really know what each other is doing but there is always this sense of familiarity and a warm fuzzy feeling even though all of them keep bullying me!!! haha.

school is going to its third week and I already have 3 projects to do including FYP! I am so freaking dead and right now i have not finished any of them yet. Think i am gonna have to pia through it tmr and monday! lessons have been tiring and the travelling is freaking straining. Guess I wasn't so used to it yet. Hopefully, things will be better. Looking on the brighter side of things, i have gotten all my modules and I have my friend with me during the lessons. Of course, not forgetting to thank gui gui for lending me her room during the big long breaks! thanks gui gui! i do miss you too, muacks!

alrighty, gonna start relaxing before retiring for the night. need to wake up at 10 to watch swimming again! whooo hooo PHELPS!

A brief summary of my summer hols - Part 1

2008-08-08T21:32:00.000-07:00

I have finally got some time to blog about my holidays!! whoo hoo. I know its a LITTLE overdued but I am trying my best ok. My computer is freaking slow in uploading pics and hence this took me almost 2 days to upload all the pics.

Trip #1- Kelong in CCK.

I went to kelong for a one night stay over the weekend in the month of july. It is qt a nice change for the usual rush hours esp u work in raffles place. Thanks to baby's friends that we managed a nice stay at the kelong at CCK and a nice fresh seafoodie bbq. YUM YUM.

dogs of the kelong! so ke ai right! esp the one with the blue bowl behind. he is damn cute la! I was so tempted to carry him home but I have already got waffle. And i think waffle might just gobble him up.

he is so cute and of cos we must carry him out. Baby had to brave his hostile parents and carry him out. He looked half asleep in this picture but still damn cute! I can totally relate him him! ( for the cute-ness of cos!)

baby trying to be funny as usual. the place is really breezy and cold....

this is the kelong side of the sea, the other side are all the high rise buildings. Such a sharp contrast.

It is qt a good experience but I think it will be a long time before I go there again. They got a lot of mosquitoes there!!! ARGH. And its pretty boring there...

TRIP #2- Malacca, Malysia( Truly Asia)

Of course, I had to go on a trip during this summer hols. but due to financial constraints, we can only go somewhere nearer and this time we chose malacca which is full of historical and cultural stuff. And what's more, just a few days before we went, it was recognized as one of the world's historical sites. Whoo hooo. ( but like its any of our business, haha)

Malacca Trip- Day 1

We arrived at around 2 plus and of course we were hungry! So, we decided to try their famous chicken rice balls( which is not exactly v good but ok la). we wanted to go the other local chix rice balls but its already closed by the time we reached! It shows how good it is. So, we die die also must try before we went back and hence, we managed to get a bite before coming back to sg on the last day.

me and chix rice balls and wanton soup. the waton soup, surprisingly, turns out qt nice.

the restaurant is built like the palace and hence they have decors like these for tourists to take pictures. totally a good gimick and there are tons of tourists around and hence gave us the delusion that the food is good there.

me and the sculptured walls. but actually, most of the pictures are repeated. haha. We ended the day with pasam malam dinner at Jonker Street. The food is very very nice as we packed back to our hotel and had a satisfying and cosy dinner.

Malacca-Day 2

me having bfast at our hotel. we din take any pics of the hotel room( in case of...) but the hotel room is qt spacious and nice and of course at a reasonable rate.

The first museum we visted. This is actually the start of a long and strenous museum trips. For ppl who dun really like to visit museums, malacca should not be that fun for u! but for me, i love museums! haha.

the nice shade of blue against the buildings as I was taking the colorful ricksaw around the town.

cheng ho- the founder of malaaca( i think). The details are a bit blurry now. haha

The big Cheng ho. Super hot day la! I feel so sad for him.

The Frontosa Fort. These are the remains and those stone slabs at the back are mostly tombstones.

Malacca was once under Holland and this is the one of the few remainding windmills left.

The big big Ship! saw it on the first day, thought it was a real ship left behind by the colonial masters. It turned out that this is a musuem that was built a few years back.

baby weird pose #1

we were on top of this tower that overlooks the entire town of malacca! looked how burned I am! So ugly, but it really fits my top color. haha.

satay cilup. It doesnt taste that good. But I think at that point of time, we were not very hungry and hence this does not taste v appetizing. haha.

our surprise discovery as we rode around trying to find supper for the night. Totally not dressed for this pretty ferris wheel. Damn lok kok la!

me and baby in the ferris wheel. Due to it was qt late at night, they gave us like damn many rounds on the ferris wheel. We were clamouring to get out after he finally put us down. haha.

Malacca- Day 3

The famosa fort at Malacca

Cannons

Lao Pok Fighter plane

A train in the middle of nowhere.

Baby weird pose #2

Baby weird pose #3- he trying to pull the train. So MAN.

me and the cows with crazy eyes.

the last picture of trip in the last musuem we visited. We paid 2 Rm to walked through qt a lousy musuem and this model ship is probably the most interesting artefact around.

Tada! this sums up my part 1 of my trip! next up, i will show some pictures of outings with friends!

First day of sch!

2008-08-08T03:25:00.000-07:00

Howdy everyone!

nopes, i did not disappear. it is just that I am plainly too lazy to blog. I am now lazing on sw bed with sweet waffle asleep beside me. An hour ago, he was still nipping my ankles, making love marks on my knees and calves.

It is the end of the week and i just attended my lessons! haha. Yeaps, i have lessons on both thurs and friday but being the usual me, i pon as usual! I am so sorry yanzhen! whooo hoo. Had a straight 5 hours lecture in a row but its not the full blown schedule as it is only part of 7.5 hours marathon which is going to start next week!

anyways, i need to complain abt freaking ntu evil conspiracy to earn more money! they refused to give me all my modules when i had applied for 5 modules they only gave me 1 and its not even the one I wanted! boooo hoooo. i think its just an evil ploy for me to pay them more fees to take intersem or another acad year. ( choy!) I am so gonna give them hell if they are not approving my appeals!

alright, tonight is the olympics opening! so exciting! I have waited for 4 years for it! whooo hooo. alrights, baby is back and we are going for dinner before rushing back to watch the openings!!!

I just don't get it

2008-06-04T08:39:00.000-07:00

What is the true definition of friends?

Friends that tolerate all ur weakness and a willing hand in times of need and a listening ear in times of troubles and happiness? To me, thre are different level of friendship. There are friends whom you can say hi and bye and not going anything beyond that. There are friends when u can say more things but however, it might be anything from the weather to what u having for lunch, just making small talks. There are of course friends that you can just be comfortable with the silence and able to speak ur mind, knowing he or she would know what you are implying.

To me, the third type is the one tt i cherished the most in my life. I likes friends that i can just say absolutely everything under the sun and teasing them mercilessly ( swee!) and not minding me one bit. I know they know that i meant them no harm, hence i can be my real self in front of them.

its so freaking tiring to keep a mental note of all the taboo topics to say and choosing ur words carefully.

i thought our friendship went beyond that?

apparently, i was wrong.

***

Went out for a movie after work today! Watched narnia with gmp! i remembered last year when we watched the first installment and time sure fly past! its now the second installment. So much things have changed but we are still as happy as ever! it was a rather good show, much better than the first one. i like this pace better. and of course, peter is so shuai! hahaa. ok, i think i am too too ( get the pun?) to dream over him. haha.

had a nice cake session at nydc after the movie. thanks to gmp for treating me to the cakes. and of course datou for suggesting n offering to sing a bdae song for me! i do love all ur TLC. thanks to guigui for ur present too! and of course to loomie for celebrating my bdae 2 times in a row! i know you do love me! thanks babe.

10 more minutes till the release of results! i am so freaking worried this time. Dunno what i am feeling kancheong about but the whole world is online waiting for the release of the results! brrrr. my hands are shaking! i am keeping my fingers crossed.

one more year to buck up!

post 22 ranting

2008-05-28T08:28:00.000-07:00

the day i turned 22 came and go just like that. nothing really special this year as i spent my birthday with me working till 6 and had a simple dinner with my family minus my dad who had an important gathering to go to. bah. thanks to all friends who wished me happy birthday through sms, facebook and of course personally. just disappointed in some so called "friends" who din even bother sending a simple sms over. its not that i want to be gek gao but seriously, its rather simple task to do. Somehow it feels quite hurting. you know who u are.

thanks to baby who celebrated with me on mon. thought we din manage to go onto the singapore flyer but the feeling is real good when u spend your special day with ur loved ones. he could barely keep his eyes open on the way back but he has been trying to keep the birthday spirit in the air! love u lots.

work has been getting more and more tedious and stressful. my job involves me multi tasking and i am totally an idiot at that though i tried my best. feel rather sad and demoralized when i have been making stupid mistakes like ticking the wrong type of file. but my colleagues have been great about it. working in a bank is so much more different than my previous jobs. i think so far its the most " thinking" job i have... haha. so u can tell how slack i was in the past. I used so much brain cells that I am always so sleepy on the train back home. For like nth times in the row, i have sat all the way to sembawang. haha

alrights, tmr is meeting up with the gang again. love it when i do that. i always feel so happy when i am with them.

First day of work!

2008-05-22T01:13:00.001-07:00

Just started work at O*** at raffles place. Thanks to swee who intro me this job in the bank. Once again, its the start of the hectic squeezing with the OLs and gancheong singaporeans. The entire MRT was packed like sardines and everyone getting off at the same place.

Work was alright but there was not much to do on the first day. hopefully, there is more to do tomorrow onwards as time will pass faster with things to do! haha. Suppose to work from 0900 to 1830 but later my colleagues told me that working hours in our department is actually from 0830 to 1800. Dunno whether its good news or bad news. start early or end late!???!!!

had lunch with swee and huiyouuuu. it rocks to have great and funny lunch partners like them. 2 more mths of lunching with them! haha. its so freaking fun and it really brings back to my good old sec sch days. i love my lunch kakis.

I signed up for this CLEO outdoor shoot. dunno what the hell possess me to do that!!! though this mth cleo mag is all about loving your body but i totally dun feel the love! I can feel the fats accumulating on me as i get hungry so easily in the office. Oh no. I really need to get some exercise done before 23rd june! one more month to go! but with the working hours, i wonder how am i going to get some exercise done! unless i go running after work, which makes me kinda of lazy to do that, but I MUST DO IT! otherwise i might just be skipping this entire thing which i think guigui will confirm kill me!

anyways, i will be getting an email for my temp job cos i will be helping with the email correspondence. quite exciting! but my work place cant use msn or hotmail though i can surf the net unlike swee. haha.

alrights, feeling tired liaos. tmr is another day of squeezing with the peak hours ppl! but TGIF!!! muahahha

i need a job!

2008-05-12T05:44:00.000-07:00

I have been bumming for the past 2 weeks and it has been driving me crazy. Almost everyone I know is going out of the country this weekend. luanie is on the way to philippines tmr to have a nice resort holiday, guigui tee is currently in hk having the fun of her life in hk disneyland, jasmine is going on a cameron islands and genting trip! soon, yx will be going aussie soon! I wanna get out of Singapore!

but maybe i am having a pre-bdae celebrations in malacca during the weekend before my birthday but again i am financially constrained! cos i am UNEMPLOYED! for the first time, there is no need for me to take a mth off for to prepare oc stuff but there is no one out there willing to hire me! WTH. please give me a good highly paid job so that i can fulfill my great holiday plans before i go out to the real world next year!

I am so bored being cooped up at home with nothing much to do at home! i have watched all the shows that i need to watch! I need a new shows to be obsessed about! can anyone recommend some nice shows for me to watch? Anyway, i just watched the latest episode of gossip girls. gossip girls are turning out really good these few episodes.

had some disagreement over the weekends. feel so lousy after that. about myself and everything. but i am glad things are fine now. for now. hope the weekend get away for both of us will be good for our relationship. I am starting to lose the momentum for this r/s thing. there are so much more to learn i guess.

The yang warriors! 少年杨家将

2008-05-01T09:17:00.000-07:00

oh my god. I am totally in love with this show. It had kept me sleepless for two nights in the row making me sleep at dawn since I came home on tuesday. It is now currently showing on channel u but my sister d***nloaded the entire series! It is damn freaking nice la. I really love war epics especially of the yang family! I remembered a few years ago, i was also hooked on the yang men nv jiang which was showing on ch u!!! and i finished the entire series in 3 nights. haha. so proud of myself.

The last few episodes had me sobbing like a baby in the middle of the night when all the men all died, leaving the mother and wives to mourn them. It has been a long since I was so hooked on some shows like this. haha. It got me so hooked that I even went to download yang men nv jiang which i can pretend its the sequel to the show! great idea right? haha. alrights, i am mad.

Exams have ended and I have started my bumming life. Staying at home and sleeping the entire day away and watching shows. but tonight i am going back to school for the last gmp steamboat in hall since loomie graduating and i may not be able to get a room back in hall.

going for some job interview on mon. hopefully, i can get it.

Waffle! woof woof

2008-04-23T04:12:00.001-07:00

Okays, the title says it all. now presenting my baby waffle,

he looks a bit big here cos he was taken inches away from the lenses only. sleeping peacefully on baby's flat mate chest. such a cutie pie but when he is awake, he is quite a terror. but of course, he is a cute and lovable terror. how can anyone not like dogs? he started teething and keep biting our hands even though we provided him with nice synthetic bone to chew on. apparently he thinks fingers and toes are yummier. He is getting toilet trained at the moment and he is already half toilet trained! whooo hooo, such a smart puppy. we only got him in a week and he is a tad toilet trained.

baby was telling me that he was playing in the living room when he suddenly ran into the bedroom toilet and started peeing and shitting. not once but twice! celebrations. shall give him a big wet kiss tomorrow. such a good little dog.

anyway, I really detest those people who want to keep pets in a fit of impulse and abandoning them later on. A animal life is still a life and they have feelings too! whenever i see stray cats in hall, i really feel like slapping those who brought them back in the first place and later abandoning them when they started to grow bigger and not as cute as before. please be responsible and take good care of your pets.

anyways, this is my only picture of waffle cos i havent gotten the rest from zitao ( baby's flatmate) but i will bug him tomorrow after my financial econs paper.

paper today was indescribable. i dun have the right words to describe but just glad it is over. but the real test i am afraid of is coming next monday which i totally have no clue how to mug for it. I hate game theory but i really hope tt i will start to grasp the concepts over the weekend. Please please please!

okay. going back to mugging whilst waiting for roomie to come back. its her last paper and last exam in ntu! lucky her!

Gloomy

2008-04-21T00:33:00.000-07:00

2 papers have passed and I am onto my third and fourth paper this week and not to mention next week killer paper! I am so totally clueless about game theory but I don't have time to worry about that now since I am still finding a hard time to encode the 402 information into my head. And it doesn't feel good to know that our assignment had gotten a B from the prof. Kinda of disheartened by it. Sighs.

Feel so gloomy when I am back at hall today. So alone. No one was in hall and I miss my waffle tho he wasn't on his best behavior yesterday and this morning. I can wait for exams to end so that I can play with him all day long without worrying about what chapters or lectures I have not studied yet. Feeling really slack this semester and it's not helping when I see the people around me all ending their exams soon.

it is totally not helping that I was sick two days before the exams started and also that there is absolutely nothing for me to look forward to after exams besides the thought of playing with waffle all day long. hehe. Why do everything go so so so so wrong for me this sem?

I wish there is more support and encouragement but instead, I was filled with guilt and restlessness. I wish all these bad feelings will come to a pass soon. I cant possibly concentrate with all these negative thoughts bombarding my head.

i need to shake all these dark thoughts in my head away and start to seek the sunshine and happiness waiting at the end of darkness. alright, i just need to get all these rubbish out of my head and go back to mugging again. Again, its the most amazing thing how fast i can blog. whooohooo.

Spoilt camera

2008-04-08T20:52:00.000-07:00

I am just freaking suay these few weeks! My camera of 2 years is spoiled!?! I have to get it to the service centre but I realize there are tons of samsung mobile service center but do not have any of the outlets servicing cameras. Do anyone of you know whether there are any samsung service centers that repairs camera?

Anyway, i am still gonna post up some pics I took from my barely functioning camera cos I am bored! Bored of studying, bored of exams and bored of waking-up-early-and-sitting-on-my-desk-till-the-sky-turned-dark. Really hate this period of time and its totally not helping when all your friends in the final year are slacking their time away! Oh well, looking on the brighter side of things, at least I am not going out to the dog eat dog world to start working till my legs ache from the heels I am wearing and squeezing with all kinds of ridiculous ppl in the train.

Oh yeah, not going to do any attachment this coming holidays. The school really aint helpful at all to find attachment for us, only 29 ppl out of the course 80 ppl get to do their PA and almost most of them are self sourced. Feeling really lousy about this matter but I have straighten my thinking. It is so much better to get a better paying job than a lousy job attachment with pay. Hopefully, I can squeeze myself in some banking job or whatsoever. Keeping my fingers crossed.

You see how lan pok my camera pictures are? the screen is still clear but once u processed the picture it became like this! oh god. :( Anyways, this is taken at the new T3 which me and baby went last weekend! haha i know, i am such a slacker! But the place is nth fantastic cos many of the shops are not open yet. But there are damn alot of restaurants and cafes. I think they have like 2 TCCs at T3, coffee bean which I can foresee that it will be fave place to do my fyp there! it looks so comfortable.

This was taken at baby's new place before my cam went kuku. Whoo, the dinner looked delicious. I love home cooked food, especially with the soup and everything. I cooked the rice and eggs only and the rest was whipped up by the great chef Kon. His cooking is amazingly nice.

Though I hate to do this, but i have to go back to mugging soon! its already 12 noon and I am gonna have lecture later! So, I have to get my HE402 done by the time i need to go lecture! tata!

I love st nicks (:

2008-03-30T10:45:00.000-07:00

I guessed i am the last one to blog about the funfair back at sn! oh my god, i totally love the feeling of going back to sn, all those good old days just came rushing back to me and made me very high. It is the place where I will always feel right at home and make me wanna go school all day long even bearing those long and boring lessons but looking forward to talking cock with my friends and laughing at funny teacher and of course, the great and cheap canteen food!

Me and sians and luanie shared a cab to sn cos we were too hot to walk the long windy road from the casaurina road all the way to sn and of cos, we just wan to get to sn asap. The cab driver was a funny uncle who totally shared out enthusiasm at sn funfair. Apparently, we are one of the many groups he shuttled to our beloved school. I feel even more high after hearing that.

Huiyou gave us a pre warning before we reached and said there are are damn alot of ppl and cars and we din quite believe her until we saw this scene in front of us:

this only makes up 5% of the crowd. If your eye is sharp enough, i am sure u can spot a merry go round which we din take in the end cos the queue was rather long and it cost 8 bucks! oh gosh, inflation had arrived at sn funfair too!

me and sians at upper concourse. the moment i reached, the place was so over congested tt i was sweating like a pig. it was like a freaking suana there but of cos it din spoil my mood at all as u all can see from my wide grin.

me, huiyou and luanie! god i looked so fat but its alright. I am on a secret plan now. haha. hopefully, it works.

me huiyou and sians again, dunno wad weird pose huiyou is posing. i think she wait for us until her brain goes a bit kuku liaos (:

this is the picture taken outside the gym. my fingers looked distorted here.

we tried to sneak behind luanie and sians to take a pic. but apparently, they know!

back in our fave classroom and locker. I remember all sorts of rubbish i stuffed into my locker and the hard time i have to clear on the last day of school. We had to go to office to take those A4 boxes and put our stuff inside in order to bring them home. u see the things left on the locker, we used to leave our files there too until chen hui li come and scold us to clear them away. but the next day, they were back there again! haha

liting aka mao keng, me and huiyou. yeaps, we are allowed to paint our classroom walls. but this picture looked so CG with the green background. maybe if i am better with my photoshop i can just fix some nice background instead of the boring green background.

luanie and huiyou. luanie is riting on the board with a white chalk marker! gone are those days with white chalk making ur fingers white, instead they used chalks which looked like markers. All of us are freaking amazing by them.

yea yea, i am over towering over sian. haha.

I like the layout of this picture. luanie, huiyou, shawn, me, liting and sian. Sians's head looked so small as compared to let say luanie! ahhaha.

alrights, this is the start of me huiyou and luanie cam whoring with sian lye's camera. We are trying to do xi nu ai le!

XI

NU

Our AI disappeared!!!! so sad.

but nvm, last but least,

LE!!! me and huiyou coincidentally did the same pose. haha(: great minds think alike

4 truth unit! can u see wad we are trying to do! I am happy tt so many of 4 truthians 2002 turned up for the funfair unplanned! whoa!

6 bucks lagsana tt sians bought. it tasted qt good tho she have to wait a good half an hour for it.

me and my sister. She was in green house too! apparently, you will be in the same house as ur sibling and she sort of blamed me for that. Green house is no longer as strong as last time but during our time, green house is good ok! she just got dunked by her friends and now she is as red as lobster due to sun burnt. the guy behind on the dunk booth is their new pe teacher. apparently, he is quite popular cos a lot of girls paid to dunk him and once he entered the water, the girls cheered and shrieked like mad! oh god, raging hormones. it was as if they had never seen a guy before.

sn is always trying to be different and doing some record breaking thing. I am not sure wad record breaking they are doing but it goes along the lines of having the most number of ppl running 24 hours non stop. They also invited this guy who is in wheel chair tt participate in the NUS and NTU charity run not long ago. but to run, each person have to pay 10 bucks! I don't think i am tt crazy to pay to run, somemore on such a hot day! but it was wonderful to see some of the teachers and old girls run la! haha.

ok now, i am going to take u all back to the good old days. the next picture was taken in the sn funfair 2003 when we just entered JC. cant believe how i survive looking like that in the past....and pls dun kill me, luanie!!!! haha

PAST

sians, swee, luanie, lijie and me. ARGHHHH, 'nuff said.

PRESENT

taken outside the same place! looked how different we are! oh godddddd. ok, my hair is a tad messy cos the fan is blowing at me. luanie apparently suffer the same fate as me! haha. we are currently doing sian fave pose. i think she is trying to imitate paris hilton or smth, not very sure. haha.

ok, that was the last pic we took and we immediately proceed to jubilee and rot our time away at our old fave hangout- bubble tea shop! so fun! it had been a long time since i rot there, it think the last time we were there were 7 years ago! wahhaha. we stayed there for a full 4 hours and had a fun time playing bridge!

alrights, really need to go sleep le. tmr got lecture in the morning and the gang is coming over again tmr! oh no, i am such a slacker when exams are in 2 weeks time!!!! After tmr, its just gonna be mug mug and more mugging for me! cant afford to slack anymore!

nites everyone!

Hall dinner

2008-03-18T10:26:00.000-07:00

Time flies and its already my third hall dinner. Somehow, this year feels different from the rest. As usual, at the end of the event, they will show this hall video that records down the entire year of events. Looking at the vid, I realise there are so many events that I don't bother attending and this saddens me somehow. Things have changed, people have changed, even I have have changed my priority of things and the way I think and look at people. Its so true when they say the change is the only constant in this world. Ironical, yet true.

Speaking of changes, as you all know, baby had moved to his new place in .... *drum rolls* Bukit panjang! I realise I really have an affinity with bp. So many of my JC mates lived there and my dad's first bought condo was there too. Visited baby's place yesterday, the place was so spacious, totally worth the rental fees he is paying! The neighborhood is quite a nice place too, with good location near the LRT and BP plaza. The place is rather windy too, the aura feels good. haha(:

The weather is still making me moody and nua. I just feel like doing nothing and my stomach again is giving me problems again. Couldn't make to today's lessons which is practically more than half of my modules this semester. Really need to buck up this semester or else things is gonna be horrible for me! I need to pull up my socks!

okay, time to relax before bedtime comes. downloaded the hana yori dango 2. hope its good.

Distance made the heart fonder?

2008-03-16T10:35:00.001-07:00

Finally, I am back to my big big room and big big table. Baby had finally gotten his own place which I do not have the chance to see it first hand yet. Somehow, I am feeling rather insecure about this entire set up tho I know in the long run, it will be better for both of us. I guess, i just need more time to get used to it.

Managed to go for a swim over the weekend. It was refreshing to spend some time with my youngest sister without quarreling or fighting over smth stupid. Sometimes, I wonder whether I am too harsh on her. After all, I was through this exact same stage in my teenage years. but I think she is really double the trouble I am. haha(: Things were good with the family this weekend tho some unsolved issues still remained. I managed to eat my yummy crayfish for dinner! haha (:

The most dreaded month is here again. I managed to finish drawing up my exam timetable. There are so little time to do so much stuff. The 3 hard cores are so gonna let me suffer again. I was completely clueless about the financial econs assignment that i need to do. darn. I am also rather bothered by internship stuff. Dont think i can get any positions in the first phase of selection. Feeling rather down abt it especially by MOF rejection, but there is nth i can do about it too. Sometimes, I really wish to turn back time to redo my second year again. I

Getting rather emotional these few days. wonder issit the time of the month again. I always get so hot tempered and moody during this time of the month. Sometimes, i wish i can just rip the hormones out of me. haha. alright, i really sound like a psychopath.

Oh yea, go catch 10000 bc! i think it is qt good! ok, i am so random here! haha(:

March is here!

2008-03-12T02:38:00.001-07:00

hello everyone, i am finally back again! decided to change a new blog add cos I think my bf will be jealous if I continue using the old address. haha (:

I have been wanting to do this for a long long time and I do know that I have ardent fans waiting for my great blog entries.

March is a month of birthdays, anniversaries and assignments! For my first ever entry, I shall post up a galore of pictures for all of you to enjoy!

2nd anniversary

We had dinner at aburaya which serves japanese charcoal grill which is smth like high class seol garden except with better food and service. We even had a complimentary ice cream at the back cos of derian! haha(: but i doubt we will be going back there soon cos the food is really too expensive for my taste. Our meal almost add up to 100 bucks. I rather have some eat all you can buffet meal and the atmosphere arent really that romantic at all. But the food is totally shiok!

After that, we proceed to plaza singapura to catch the movie step up 2. Since its a weekend, there are tons of ppl still loitering there when we reached there at 9 plus. All the movie tix for the 9 plus show are all sold out so we have to wait till 1155 to watch the show, which of course doesnt sit very well with baby. we decide to waste the time out at cafe cartel cos my student card is expiring in march 2008!!! so i shall make more trips to cartel before the student card expired. ok, i am such a cheapskate.

me whilst waiting for my dessert to arrive. luanie said i looked like i am filming a watch commercial. wahhaha

this is our table number! wheee.

we were so bored that we were taking bo liao pictures all the way.

baby is feeling grumpy and refused any picture taking. He keep insisting he is the god of gambler. whatever.

my banana waffle have arrived. It was really good! Shall order the next time i go there again!

Step up 2 is not really a worthwhile movie to watch on a weekend. It bored the tears out of baby and he fell asleep during the show. For me, I think the dance moves are really much much better than step up 1 but there is no plot at all! So, i felt the show is a bit of a letdown.

Over the weekend, it was swee swee pork birthday! It was always a great laugh to meet up with the girls! haha. This time round, all 5 of us are gathered at ichiban bonshi @ wisma for swee surprise dinner. We were so hush hush abt it that she din suspect a thing till she reached the restaurant! this is the second surprise we threw her during the span of 7 years of knowing her.

Me and luanie whilst waiting for swee pork to come into the restaurant. her walking speed is like 5m/min so we decide to cam whore for a while. haha(:

Sian arrived and we took more pics again!

this picture was taken after the meal. Sorry no pics of the food. i was too hungry and i gobbled them up once they arrived. i think my face looked so much rounder in this pic. it must be the food. wahhaha.

swee swee and huiyou, only evidence of their presence there. We forgot to take a pic of all 5 of us in the restaurant and in e end we had to take it outside wisma, which reminds me: huiyou and sians: wad happen to sending us the pictures??? once sians leave, we went balcony at the heeren to chill out. Another great place to chill if we dont have anywhere to go. haha(: love discovering new places.

The next outing we have will be back to beloved st nicks for the funfair! cant wait to see u girls again!Not to forget happy march babies to cora, baby and wanjing! no picture cos i forgot to bring my cam. sighs. alrights, i think tt's enough for the first ever entry. haha(: