♡ Tuesday, November 18, 2008
moving again!
hello everyone, sorry for not updating a long time but i am moving off to greener pastures...
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here to direct urself to my new blog, if all of u are still interested in my boring and dull life. just feel bored of blogger as i have been blogging for the past 5 years. but who knows, i might just come back if i am bored! after all, i am a gemini! i am entitled to be FICKLE! haha.
see ya guys there
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♡ Friday, October 31, 2008
baby がぃぃちぃばんすきです
went to sch early in the morning and received a pair of good news and bad news.
good news is that he41o is an open book exam which would means i have no need to use so much of my storage space in my brain. however, open book means there is i cant hold any expectations for the exams cos the prof had said that pure copying is not gonna give me good grades. hopefully i can get good structures for the essays.
bad news is that my psych final paper is gonna have 60 mcqs!!!! i need mcq shen to bless me with good luck so that i will get all the correct answers. i really have a serious problem for recognition. i am really freaking stressed up abt psych. there are like 17 topics to mug and memorize. i am really dying over psych. ( i am so sorry for those reading my blogs cos its gonna be a start of stressed filled and depressong posts.) i just need to blog it out to relieve my stress.
and of cos CBA which i do not have any idea on what is gonna come out at all. the profs are rather slack and there are some calculations that still baffles me a lot and of cos qualitative answers which i am not really sure how to answer. and not to speak of the profs always leave class early and cancelled this week lesson:( he did not even tell us the exam format.
and jap! having oral and listening next week. i cant be like last sem and slacked already as the jap level 2 is already out of my range. there are so much vocab and grammar to learn. i can just drown in the vocab seriously.
and to speak of TCM, i am really clueless abt it at all. not planning to mug until my final paper. i am just adopting an heck care attitude abt tcm already.
came home in the warmth of my family yday. really loved my family for their support. had a good talk with my dad, telling him abt me sinking into depression, he makes feel so much better. he is like the rock in my turmoil life.
of cos not to forget the other rock--- my baby.
look wad he drew me when i was talking to him abt my stressed up life.
i am really grateful and pls let all these love showered on me to get pass this difficult period. i should not wallow in self pity and do my best mugging for the exams! i believe that hard work will pay off. i just need to be calm and do my thing!
wanying! you can do it. jiayou jiayou jiayou!
11 more days to exams and 18 more days to freedom! my stomach turn queasy as the D day coming closer and closer. on the other hand, i want things to be over. hai, i seriously dunno wad i want.
okay! gotta mug somemore before resting early so tt i can have energy to mug tmr....
Labels: baby, exams stress, family
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wy scribbled @5:36 AM
♡ Sunday, October 26, 2008
Rough week
the rough week is ending soon since today is sunday! next week is another brand new week.
feeling v contented and blissful this weekend cos my bb is back!!! but the down side is that i am not mugging enough hours cos i really want to spend some time with him. just treat this as a rest and i will mug harder when he is going back tmr night... booo hoooo. feel so sad everytime he is leaving but he is gonna come back in next next weekend again!!!
my baby is so addictive.
just glad that my roller coaster feelings are over....hopefully and i have new found confidence in myself that i am smart and i can survive this...
i am glad tt i have friends to ride this storm with me... thank you all, you know who you are...
friends( other than my family, of cos) are really my pillars in my insane life.
Labels: emotional shit, happenings
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wy scribbled @6:36 AM
♡ Tuesday, October 21, 2008
the most difficult MCQ of my life
i do not know what to do. i had gotten the bad news that i din do well in my psych quiz ( which i have studied qt hard for) and i feel like SU-ing the entire modules. talked to a few friends but all of them gave me different opinions( which i am thankful for their input) but all of their advice had something in common. they want me to think through carefully and not make a rash decision and it all depends on me whether i have the confidence to do that.
feel so burned out last night and bawled my eyes out. its my only way to relieve the stress pent up inside me. almost went into cardiac arrest as i could not sleep and keep pacing the grounds. my mind are just full of the negative thoughts that i really feel like checking myself into IMH. i do not know why i am giving myself so much stress but most prob its my second last semester. there is no more second chances.
i even have to resort to muscle relaxation and deep breathing tactics to lull myself to sleep. why can't life always go well for me. there is no semester that i do not worry about a particular module. there is always a module tt i am super damn worried about.
i need to talk to boomie about it before i make a rash decision. she always have this calming effect in my life. thank god for her.
my msn nick of the day:
someone save me from this bottomless pit and look what my baby draw for me on msn?
he recently discovered handwriting on the msn function and started presenting me with his daily drawings. wish he was here with me cos he always know the way to make me laugh and forgot all my troubles.
thank god for my family, friends and of cos baby for being there.
i need to think positive and work harder for exams!
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wy scribbled @9:21 PM
♡ Sunday, October 19, 2008
Exam mania!
the usual exams panics came and attack me again!
so freaked out. i can't afford to slack this semester, as this is my last second sem to pull up my grades. somehow, this sem, i felt v ill prepared.
it must be the 3 years of staying in hall which makes me feel more motivated to study. but this time round, there is no pressure to start mugging early at all. feel so stressedddddd...
effectively i have only 4 subjects to study for exam however, i did not attend a single TCM lecture at all. tho i have SU it, but i have no confidence to pass this module. arghhhhh. sighs. just have to work a tad harder for this subject, i just need a pass, a pass is fine! so afraid of bell curve as if all the ah tiongs do well, it will be harder to pass this module.
jap level 2 is getting harder too... i can no longer slack so much in jap already. but heng is tt i attended the lessons quite regularly and should be able to catch up with my work but the vocab words are amazing alot! i think there are like more than 300 of them....
wells, tho i have only taken 2 econs modules this sem, they are still not that easy. one good thing is that the final exams only comprises of 50% but still, i need to do well in order to pull up my GPA further....
and of cos every sem i will have a killer module and this sem is the psycho module. so much to memorize. sometimes i really regret taking tt module.... but bo bian... hai... aniways the quiz results are not out yet. haii... worried. please let me have a decent grade so tt things wun be so bad.
alrights, shall have to go shower and home sweet home to cont my mugging life...
Labels: exams stress, school
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wy scribbled @3:41 AM
♡ Friday, October 10, 2008
hell week はぉゎります!!!
it took me a pretty long time to figure the hiragana words on my keyboard!
finally, its time to rest before going on full burst to start the mugging season...
stayed up till 3am to do up my discussant project for 410! thought that we won't do really well for it since its so last minute but the prof praised us! he said he liked the way we started with the good points and acknowledge tt the group had indeed done well in their paper and research before going into the points that we think is not so good. i guess, in life, you must always try to see the good in ppl first before passing judgment--- a very impt life lesson that i learnt in economics today!
sometimes i really love economics, it is totally related to ur everyday life and u realise everything happens for a reason. there is always this cause and effect relationship that will spring surprises at u every now and then. i feel extra intellectual whenever i attend 410 as the new info is processed in my brain. sometimes i wish i was more well read but i guess, i am simply too lazy for that. haha.
left one more project left for the entire sem ( not counting fyp) sometimes, i really amazed at the last min work that me, chu an and yz can churn out. it feels so good to cheer each other and realise tt u are not alone in this shit but rather there are ppl with u. i love my fyp mates to bits tho we seldom socialise outside of lessons but i am glad to have them in my uni days.
going to take a mini break, watching my kangxi and wulindadao! i am recently addicted to wulindadao and i really think da s is getting prettier and prettier! ( i am not referring to u ok, gui tee. stop having illusions!) haha. just kidding sia.
heard a couple of econs classmates discussing the number of resumes they had sent. send a tiny alarm bell ringing in my head tt i have not yet sent out any. i really fear what's ahead of me especially with this economic recession tt singapore is facing right now. my mom kept telling me just get wadever job i can get ipon graduation and earn some experience. i think she is afraid tt i will be a parasite at home.... haha...
afraid of what lies ahead of me but u have no choice just to move forward, hoping to find tt light in ur life.
Labels: random, school
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wy scribbled @7:02 AM
♡ Wednesday, October 8, 2008
wonders of facebook
I was so bored last night that i went onto my facebook account to add some friends and view what is happening around my friends. and i was bo liao to update my status to " i am having severe depression + panic disorder"
just seconds later, a number of ppl pm me about my status and start to give me words of encouragement. one was from a sec school friend that i could actually count the number of sentences we have actually had with each other and the other one is my cousin! i was so surprised when i was checking my mail and received notification that they had replied to my status asking me whether i am alright, blah blah. and a minute later, my another cousin msned me and asked how was i doing.
i was so paiseh tt i immediately took them down. nonetheless, i was damn touched and thankful for my friends and family.
it was 230 am in the morning.
i hate to admit it but facebook is qt a wonderful thing. it helps u keep track of ur friends and what they have been up to and also some mini surprises when u realises u have mutual friends. that's when u realise how small the world is. haha.
right now, i am still stressed abt the quiz tmr. i think i nv studied so hard for a quiz before. i really have negative thoughts about it and keep thinking i will do badly in it. taking abnormal psych indeed makes one abnormal. when u read abt the different symptoms of mental disorders, you start relating to yourself and analyzing whether u have such syptoms. no wonder they always say its a thin line between insanity and sanity.
but how do you determine whether a behaviour is insane or sane? i think this is a rather subjective topic and some things might be insane to u but perfectly sane to others. it just depends on ur social environment and the way you are brought up.
i always blog surf whenever i was mugging cos i had rather short attention span. and i came across this blog as she blogged about her hk trip! i suddenly had this weird fantasy of meeting lam fung on the streets of hk if i do visit hk one day! haha. mugging is driving me mad. i actually fantasize wad i am going to say to him and request to take a pictures with him!
ok,enough of mad talking and back to my notes.
i need to think positive to cope with stress.
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